"Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light."
- Matthew 11:28-30

how this passage really gives me a freshness of mind. i feel like i've been thru lots of discouragment lately. my minds keep on telling me that this is all meant to be. all of the loneliness, all of the pain, all of the bitter. i lost my directions. i feel like i'm walking in the wrong pathway. i dont know who to turn for counsel. i mean ... i know exactly to whom i must turn to, but i guess i easily let Him down. or perhaps i consider His ways is not the kind of ways that i want. i tend to work things my own way. and as we know ... i'm wrong, now, i got mislead.

at this kind of time, i wish i have someone [physically] right next to me. to comfort me, just hold me, rub my cheeks, stroking my hair. someone to tell me that in a way i'm special no matter what others may say. is that so hard for me to get? what is wrong with me that makes me unable to get that kind of attention from anyone? the one that i thought will always stay and be with me has gone and leave me. what's left is only the pain for knowing that the promise has been spoken with no consistent actions following it. it makes me unable to trust again.

watching most of my friends that have to deal with these things really bother me. we have given everything we can. we gave our sincere affections and love. but instead of receiving what we deserve, all we get is betrayal, dishonest, broken promises and remorse for our foolishness. now do these things really worth the fight?

maybe i'm not being fair here. there is also some things that we gain. we gain strength, we gain self aknowledgement that we are able to give love to the fullest without first calculating what we'll get in return. we didn't play by the book, but we are able to use our heart.

why do women regrets the most?